10 hours towards deadline...

Well, it's almost 2009 and I feel like I'm stuck in the middle...

 In such a perfect world, I would've going somewhere, spending my what-so-called-year-end-holiday.. But hey, this ain't a perfect world.. So, here I am.. Trapped... In the middle of my tasks.. Can’t barely move.. Quite depressive, isn't it..

 I've been working for this pra TGA for the last 6 months (that's what written on this semester's schedule.. haha..), and now I fed up with this subject... It's like I haven't found the key element on this subject, while I only got 2 more weeks to finish it.. Crap..

 And for making it complicated, I have to write my study plan and essay to apply for a scholarship. How can I write such thing like study plan if I have no idea what to study??? (And yeah, fed up with the subject...). Have I told you that the deadline is tomorrow?? Both pra TGA, and essay-study plan...

 

Studying abroad has been my obsession since I was a child. And when that chance came, I’d let it slipped away (several times, I guess...). While I was in high school, I didn't want to waste a year without knowing where I was going to study. And last year I haven’t had enough time to prepare the documents.

 

So, I made up my mind, that this is my LAST chance to see the world (ooh... what a shallow reason) and experience living abroad.. (Actually I still can study abroad while taking post-graduate, just making it more dramatic). Looks like I’m an ambitious person, aren’t I??

The truth is, I haven’t made my essay and study plan; I haven’t got my TOEFL score (but I had taken the test); I haven’t asked my lecturers for recommendation letters; and instead of making those tasks (essay, study plan, and pra TGA), I choose to post this depressive blog. It seems like I have such a serious problem with making priority (and concentration for sure).

 But I haven’t given up yet. Some said good inspirations come up with the rise of the sun (well, that’s me saying).. Dawn is long, and night is still... So I’ll try my best ‘til the very end..

 

 PS : I was listening to Coldplay’s song: Lovers in Japan during typed this post... How ironic!! Well, at least Chris Martin’s voice gave me more strength to finish these tasks.. Huff... Hope I can see,-not just dreaming of-, the Osaka (oopss.. Fukuoka)’s sun.. Gambatte for myself!!